Also, this past week I started having jaw muscle spasms that are pretty intense. The spasms start in my jaw and the best way I can describe it would be that it feels like a lightening bolt shooting straight through my jaw, up to my temple and settling in behind my left eye socket. It's pretty painful and there's not a whole lot I can do about it right now. They are just going to happen. Doc told me yesterday that the muscle that is spasiming is called the masseter muscle and it's the strongest muscle in the human body (as far as exerting force.) WOW! The reason mine has started to spasm? I haven't been able to use this powerful beast of a muscle for 6 weeks now and now it's starting to revolt. Doc said that I can remove my elastics for a couple of hours per day now and try and open and close my jaw to work the muscle. This does not come easy however. I can open approximately 30mm at the moment and normal jaw opening range is from 45-55mm. I have to take my fingers and pry my jaw open. This is my rehab therapy and something I have to do even though it hurts like hell to stretch it beyond 30mm. The goal is to try and get to 40mm by my next follow up visit. So not only am I training my triathlon muscles, but now I begin training my masseter muscle to allow me to return to a normal life. I'll be honest, the thought of ever biting into a juicy sweet apple or a huge Chipotle burrito again scares the hell out of me. I'm sure it will come in time and I can't wait for that day!! The two chin fractures still cause some pain, but I know that it just takes time. The left side of my face is still completely numb. Can't feel a thing. Not even my nose. 50% chance that the numbness will be permanent. We shall see.
Also, last night I did my first brick of the season and it was a killer. Coach had me do 10x3 mins at 10 watts about my FTP (which was the one done early Dec ouch) with 60 sec recovs. The best part. I had to do a 4 mile run off of that. Quad killer then run. I did it and that bike session hurt, but when my feet hit the ground running, I felt like I was floating on a cloud. Another score!
I was telling good friend and confidant Alice just yesterday that this all has been really tough, but it has changed me. It has changed me in a really really good way. I have learned things about myself that I did not know. I have learned that I am stronger than I ever realized and that my mind will never be a limiting factor in anything I do again. I believe things happen for a reason. In some ways, this was something that happened to me to tell me to slow down, rest, reevaluate, recalculate and then attack. I know there are people out there with far far worse things that they are dealing with, but I really believe that optimism in any bad situation brings great results. I have changed. I am stronger and I will always remember how hard this has been and how I tackled it all head on, head strong.
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